I turned 46 last month.
More days are in my past, than will probably be in my future.
Now, I might live into my 90s, but probably not. That is a rather sobering thought, actually.
Lately, I’ve been thinking about my life, what I have accomplished, what I’ve done that truly has made a difference, other lives I have touched, and how I’ve influenced my circle of family and friends.
These types of thoughts are nothing new to me. I am what I like to call a “silent thinker”. I ponder much more than I say aloud, not that I don’t talk, because I do. My husband thinks, maybe too much. Overall, I think about things more often than I talk about them.
Writing is my therapy. I am able to get things typed out, process my thoughts, as they flow across my laptop screen. Sometimes, I surprise even myself.
Life is comfortable for me right now. It wasn’t always that way. I am grateful for this time, believe me.
But, I don’t think God allows any of us to stay in our comfort zones for too long.
Not because He doesn’t love us, and wants to scare us, or make us miserable.
Quite the contrary.
He doesn’t allow us to stay there precisely because He does love us……and He made us to be extraordinary.
Maybe not extraordinary by this world’s standards, but most definitely by His.
I have consciously said, “yes” to God more than once. Yes, to whatever His desires are for me. His plans, His ways, His choice.
At times when I really take a moment to consider this I get a bit nervous…that the God of the universe has my number.
I consider taking my yes back, but I don’t.
I am reminded of His great and everlasting love for me. I allow that thought to comfort me.
God has a plan. A perfect plan. We all have a part in His plan. Sometimes I wish He would fill me in on things a bit more than He does, but, really, it is not about me or what I want. It is about what He wants.
This whole life is for His glory alone.
In all honesty, I don’t know the plan. I don’t know what lays ahead for me, and that is okay.
God is good and He will show me, one day at a time.
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This post was inspired by a story I read today. A runner. A world traveler. A woman whose eyes were opened to a new life. You can read all about it, here.