Sometimes I feel so weighed down by the calendar and clock. My schedule gets busier and busier. The urgent pulls at me, clawing, ripping. I diligently pen in yet another thing that I need to do now, so I can check it off my to do list later. Keeping up with a marriage, a family, a life….is time consuming and not always easy. In fact most of the time it is definitely not easy, and I am tired. It isn’t even 8 in the morning…and I’m already ready for the day to be done. Is it bedtime yet?
I find myself thinking it will be better when this month is over. It will calm down when summer gets here. I will relax when my schedule isn’t quite so full. Always somewhere down the road. Always another time. Then it hit me. I was spending my time, like coins falling through my fingers. Wasting the moments because I was too focused on the urgent. After all, I’ll never walk this way again. Once this day is spent, it is gone forever. Each day is unique and I was no longer seeing it.
What does worrying about today’s schedule do for my peace of mind? I need to take the moments as they come. My obsessing over the details does nothing to calm my spirit. I might be really organized (and on some days even that is debatable), but what good is that if I’m so stressed that there is no longer any enjoyment? That is not how my Lord calls me to live.
In fact, He talks about worry and time and schedules often, in His Word. His words run over me like cool water in a dry desert. He draws me close and whispers, “Don’t worry. I’ve got this.”
Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. John 15:4 NIV
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Philippians 4:6 NIV
He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. Psalm 91:4 NIV
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. Matthew 6: 25-34 NIV