The van wouldn’t start. It was setting dead in the school parking lot. My son said he could catch a ride home, but the van remained.
Husband and I trekked over to the parking lot. The van was still there, setting forlornly in the waning light of day. A valiant road trip warrior that was just plain tired.
I could relate.
Somedays it seems I just can’t take ONE… MORE… THING.
When the days bring things that are broken, schedules crunched, tension mounting, work to finish, money tight, everything feels like it is about to implode.
And I want to scream, or cry…or both.
I long for life to be easier. I wait for the day that everything will make sense.
No worries, no stress, no heartache.
Can you relate? Do your days seem long, also? Ever feel like your good just isn’t good enough?
For now, I hold my head in my hands and attempt to breathe deeply. A whisper of prayer escapes my lips, nothing lofty or well spoken.
In the midst, I find myself crying out to God. So tired, Lord. I need Your peace. I need Your counsel. I need You. Oh, God! I need You. When life sucks all the oxygen out of the day to day and I feel I can’t catch my breath or catch a break….. I need You. Every day I need You.
Let’s face it, sometimes life is hard. It is a struggle to walk the walk when all I want to do is run. The burdens of life weigh heavy and I fear I will be buried in the avalanche. I need the One who is stronger than I am.
And so on days that are dim, I search for the Light, because I realize that I can’t do this alone.
“Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” John 8:12 ESV
“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.” 1 Peter 5: 7-9 NIV
“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.” Psalm 46:1 ESV