Cold Fear










There are things in this life that scare me.

Terrify me.

The kind of fear that grips the heart and won’t let go.

I’m not talking about being scared of the dark, closed in places, or spiders.

Real fear. Things that are out of my control and that I can’t do anything to change.

Understanding God’s sovereignty, but….

spending time begging God for His mercy.

Tears. On my knees. Broken by what may be…

I struggle with keeping the fear pushed back, pushed down. Maybe if I ignore it…it will not happen.

It might go away.

Or not. It really might not. My emotion chokes me with the realization.

What if one day I am forced to come face to face with my worst fear?

I stand helpless and petrified with even the thought of it.

My heart beats faster, tears well up…. Oh, God!

God is here now. If it happens, God will be there then. God knows, oh how He knows.

When I buckle under, He will lift me up.

It is He that understands, when I can’t even put my thoughts and fears into words.

When I cry out, He hears.

He wipes my tears and stands before me.

I do not face this fear alone. He is with me.


What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? …..Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?……Romans 8:31. 35 ESV

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.  Romans 8:37-39 ESV