God, Can I Pencil You In?

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Calendars. To do lists. Schedules. Clocks.

I’m the type of personality that likes to keep things in order.

I like surprises…if it’s a party. Not so much, if it’s a life circumstance that I’m not ready for.

And yet…

I serve a God who is not chained to calendars or clocks.

His ways are not my ways. His thoughts are not my thoughts.

He does not consult my Daytimer to see if I can fit His plans into my schedule.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. Isaiah 55:8 NIV

I’ll be honest with you. When Bonnie, at Faith Barista, posed the question, ”  What is something new God is asking you to step out in?”, I wasn’t sure what to write.

The truth is I’ve been through a lot of what most people would call “challenging” circumstances, in my life time. I’ll also be completely forthright with you by saying that there are many times when I say to God, ” You know Lord, I really am worn out….can’t I just ‘coast’ for a little while? You know, nothing too good, nothing too bad…just easy. Puh-leeze?”

I’m glad that God loves me enough to not let me sit around and grow stagnant. Even if that seems okay with me, at the time.

A former pastor of mine said something that has always stuck with me. We are either in the middle of a trial, getting ready to go into a trial, or we just came out of a trial. That is life…..and he is correct.  It is usually when I’m “in the fire” that I learn something new about God…something life changing for me.

I don’t know what new thing God is wanting me to step out into….at least not yet. I believe I’m in a waiting stage right now. Many times it is the waiting that grows me. The uncertainty that draws me to Him. The dependence on God, that through my weaknesses, He will be glorified.

There are a list of things I want to do. New things I’d like to try. Maybe those desires are seeds that God Himself has planted in my heart. It could be He wants to grow me for awhile longer. At times the waiting is difficult. I struggle. I’d like to schedule things into my life. But, God says no, not yet.

But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.  Isaiah 40:31  NIV

And so I wait.